Hey.

Over time, my interests have shifted. I've been getting more and more into photography, both film and digital.

So I've moved. I'll leave this up, only because I'm to lazy to resubmit stuff.

ME:

so tagged me >__<

RULES: List ten things that are interesting about your art and put it into your journal. Then choose 6 other deviants to tag so they can do this too. Put them into the journal and inform them that they've been tagged. {opps, I didn't see the art part and finished, I'm lazy as fuck lol}

1. I have a few random OCD rituals I absolutely cannot break. Like turning off the lights in a certain order. Or that I have to shake bottled drinks before I sip outta 'em. This, of course, excludes soda.
2. Been repeatedly accused of being a 'Grammar Nazi', yet I would fail miserably at spelling with out spell check.
3. I refuse to say the word 'god' in the pledge of Allegiance, and while silent my hand goes off my heart till that word is said.
4. I sleep in awkward positions.
5. Random idea's pop outta my head while talking to Aburi. Really. OMG PENIS FISH!!! *is brutally shot* She is my Muse~.
6. I make dead-baby jokes a lot. And suicide jokes.
7. Most people believe the way I live is going to get me killed before age 20.
8. The smell of cigarette smoke makes my crave menthols. And I don't even smoke anymore.
9. I have a vibrant. varied and unique vocabulary when it comes to speaking. I don't usually use in in type cause the words are hard to spell D:... Except with Abu-chan~
10. I used to be a drug dealer. LOL JKJK I couldn't think off anything else.

I tag :

No one. As stated before, I'm bum fuck lazy.

Found randomly...because I have nothing better to do with my time?

British
[x] You drink a lot of tea. It and diet soda are the only form of H2O I get...
[ ] You know what a brolly is.
[ ] Deal or No Deal has taken over your life.
[ ] You wanted Ben to win X Factor.
[x] You use the word "bugger" or the phrase "bloody hell." Bugger. Alot
[x] Fish and Chips are yummy.
[ ] You can eat a Full English Breakfast.
[ ] You dislike emos almost as much as you dislike chavs.
[ ] Its football...not soccer.
Total: 2

Australian
[ ] you wear flip flops all year.
[ ] You call flip-flops thongs not flip flops.
[ ] You love a backyard Barbie.
[x] You know a Barbie is not a doll.
[x] You love the beach.
[x] Sometimes you swear without realizing.Shit!
[ ] You're a sports fanatic.
[x] You are tanned. I am sooooo~ dark right now.
[ ] You're a bit of a bogan.
[ ] You have an Australian something
Total: 4

Italian
[ ] The Sopranos is a great show.
[ ] Your last name ends in a vowel.
[x] Your grandmother makes her own sauces.
[ ] You know how a real meatball tastes.
[ ] You know Italian songs.
[x] You have dark hair and dark eye color.
[x] You speak some Italian.
[x] You are under 5’10’’. Yeah, 5' 2''.
[ ] you know what an Italian horn is
[ ] Pizza/spaghetti is the best food in the world!
[x] You talk with your hands. "Hullo, my name is mister hand!" Yeah, even when I'm not signing too LOL.
Total: 5

Spanish
[x] you say member instead of Remember.
[ ] You speak Spanish or some.
[ ] You like tacos.
[ ] You TyPe lIkE ThIs On Da CoMpUtEr.
[x] You are dark skinned. Naturally, my dear.
[ ] You know what a Pita is.
[x] You talk fast occasionally. Occasionally? Try anti-slow.
[x] You have had highlights or have dyed your hair.
[ ] You know what platanos are.
Total: 4

Russian
[ ] You say villain as: Vee-lon.
[x] You get short tempered. Yes.
[x] You know of somebody named Natasha. Yes, and she's Indian. As in from INDIA.
[x] You get cold easily. I'm cold now!
[x] Rain is fun for you. Yay free bath, JK
[ ] You get into contests all the time.
[x] You can easily make do with the cold weather. It's easier to get warm then it is to get cool.
Total: 5

Irish
[ ] You think beer is the best. If you like drinking piss.
[ ] You have a bad temper.
[ ] Your last name starts with a Mc, Murph, O', Fitz or ends with a ley, on, un, an, in, ry, ly, y.
[ ] You have blue or green eyes.
[x] You like the color green. Lime green that is.
[ ] You have been to a st. pattys day party.
[ ] You have a family member from Ireland.
[ ] You have blonde hair.
[ ] You have/had freckles. If I go in the sun, which isn't often.
[x] Your family get togethers always include drinking and singing.
Total: 2

African American
[ ] You say nigga/nukka casually.
[ ] You have nappy hair.
[ ] You like rap.
[x] You know how to shoot a gun. Don't ask...
[x] You think President George Walker Bush is racist. When wasn't a Bush?
[x] You like chicken. It's the tuna of the land
[x] You like watermelon.
[ ] You can dance. NO.
[ ] You can 'sing' gospel. DEAR GOD I AM SO TONE DEAF IT'S FUNNY.
Total: 4

Asian
[x] You have slanty/small eyes. Slanty, not really small thou.
[x] You like rice a lot.
[ ] You are good at math.
[x] You have played the piano. 1 yr. long story...
[x] You have family from asia. Why, yes. Okinawa
[x] You laugh sometimes covering your mouth.
[x] Most people think you're Chinese. And I hate them. Not the Chinese, the people...
[x] You call hurricanes typhoons. LOL Okinawa has alot of those.
[ ] You go to Baulko.
Total: 7

German
[x] You like bread.
[x] You think German Chocolate is good.
[ ] You Speak some German. Nein!
[x] You know what Schnitzel is.
[ ] You hate it when stupid people call you a Nazi. People call me a Grammar Nazi when mad, cause they're stupid?
[x] You went to Pre-school.
[ ] You're over 5'2 HAH, I so wish!
Total: 4

Canadian
[ ] You like/play/played hockey.
[ ] You love beer. No, I do not like drinking piss.
[x] You say eh. when questioned.
[ ] You know what poutine is.
[ ] You speak some French.
[ ] You love Tim Horton's.
[ ] At one point you lived in a farm house.
[x] You watch/watched Degrassi. CRACK LAWL
Total: 2

American
[ ] You hate foriegners.
[ ] You hate non - Christians. the oppisite. I hate the christians.
[x] You're lazy. eh, what can't I say?
[ ] You are not cultured. opposite bitch.
[ ] You hate abortion. nope.
[x] But love the death penalty. Die scumbags on DR.
[ ] You don't read. Quite the contrary.
[ ] You shop at Wal-Mart. Only in Bizzaro land.
[ ] You think this survey is rather biased.
Total: 2

Wow, I'm most Asian, big surprise there [eyeroll] followed by Italian and Russian. LOL I love Russia.

Random-ness Much?

iTunes version, and stolen from no one, lol

1. Put Your iTunes, Windows Media Player etc on Shuffle
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS


IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Scars- Dir en Grey...WTF?

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Grey- YellowCard...Wow, so true*...*look up those lyrics...

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Nodama- Rin'

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Sayonara- Gackt...(>__< );;;;///

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Crashing Down- SugarCult

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
La Volcalize- Emil Chudnovsky

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Cancer- My Chemical Romance

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Thinking Under Moon- Gackt

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Killer Queen- Queen

WHAT IS 2+2?
Breathing- YellowCard

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BESTIE?
Dreams- Weezer

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Coming Clean- Green Day

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Blood [Hidden Track]- My Chemical Romance

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Orenji no Taiyou- Gackt

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Life of a Salesman- YellowCard

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
View From Heaven- YellowCard...Cool!!!

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
White Rabbit- Jefferson Airplane... I'm a drug addict...LOL

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Vampires Will Never Hurt You- My Chemical Romance

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Box of Sunshine- Infidel Inc.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Twist- I am Kloot [BBC Sesion]

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Horrid Things- Sugar Cult

This Journal is Mirrored

Yea. It's 4:36 AM

OK. My therapist says that 'informing' friends and loved ones is 'very important'...Because, lately, friend that I didn't tell kept asking what was up with me. I figure, for any of them that read my journal will know now. It makes me uncomfortable to speak to people lately.

Tuesday, October 3rd, 2006 could quite possibly be categorized as the the absolute worst day of my life. My dad was supposed to pick me up that day, but we hadn't heard form him. Around 5:30 my dad, went to the garage at his house, and shot him self in the head. The shot, for some reason wasn't heard. An hour later, my Grandpa called my mom told her, but told my mom not to tell me. He came, he told me. I flipped. Expect for money things, I alone choose all the arranging for my fathers funeral.

Now, many weeks later. I suffer more. My psychiatrist prescribed me AdderallXR, and I've been better. I guess. I can't sleep much. on school nights, I get, on average 2-4 hours of sleep. From, I dunno when I go to bed, I sit there and rock back and forth for a few hours and cry quietly. I make pathetic weeps, moans, and little hics. I feel weak and pathetic and lonely. I can't really stand to be touch much, except by my friends. I feel afraid and alone all the time, and I desperately want platonic intimacy with another person, yet I can't, really cannot bring my self to ask. I have one of my best friends is over, (he's sleeping on my couch in the upstairs.) and I had every perfect opportunity to ask just to snuggle or something like that. Yet I can't. I'm weak and stupid and at total retard and completely useless. Lifeless. I cry constantly and i pull out my on hair.

SO, now i feel horrid and i still can't sleep. But at least I got it over with and don't have to verbally tell people.